keep on keepin’ on…

Welcome to my new blog layout! Do you like it? I needed to change it up a bit. Like my DH said, the old design worked well for what it was for when I created the blog, but I needed something fresh. Hopefully it’s easier to read!

Nothing much to report in the TTC department. I’ll be going in Friday for the blood work my ob/gyn wanted me to do. I was supposed to do it last week, but I just couldn’t make myself go in and do it then. I needed a break from it, and that’s what last week was for me.

On Friday night we had dinner with some of Justin’s seminary friends and then watched the Opening Ceremonies. It was a much needed night of relaxation.

Saturday morning we woke up and drove out to “the land of Chicago-land” – the suburbs! My best friend Susie and her family live out there and we went for a visit. There daughter, Jannah is our goddaughter. Here’s a great shot of her (she was running around the house with a color book page in her mouth):

Susie and I took the day and went shopping and had some girl time.  She is 21w5d along with her 3 pregnancy.  We were able to talk through what we have each been going through.  She had a miscarriage last year and has been trying to deal with the loss and the fear of now being pregnant after a loss.  Soup, Salad & Breadsticks at Olive Garden helped us to discuss our hopes and fears.  It was a great conversation and helped me get some stuff out that I’d been holding in.  If you get a chance, head over to her blog and wish her luck, as today she finds out if their little on is a boy or a girl!  Either way, that kid is going to be the best dressed baby around after all of the patterns I bought on Monday!!

Anyway, after shopping, we headed back to her place where the boys (her hubby & mine) had been taking care of the almost 3 year old all day!  Sounds like they had a good time, and even went to a dog sled race!  We had dinner, played a game of Settlers of Catan (my favorite) and then we had to leave.

That night we went to see our friends’ band, One of the Girls play at the Irish-American Heritage Center in Chicago.  The band is what they call “blueirishfolkgrass” and is always a good time.  It helps when you know the band!  Justin had to head home early (due to work the next day) but I stayed for the whole gig and then slept over at my friend Abbey’s house.

Kind of a fuzzy picture of the band: Roger, Tom, Tripp & Sean.  Mike D not shown.  Why?  Because…

…he was playing accordion on the bar.  Good times.

DH and I having an argument (not really, we were just kidding around).

Me, Sappers, Abbey & Evy enjoying the show.

It was a great night, and like I said, much needed.  It was nice to get out of the house and do something fun with friends!  It helped also that I had 4 Smithwick’s and a shot!  But really, just being able to have a fun day with the people I love did wonders for my mental state.

So the next steps: beta test on Friday.  Big blood work at the beginning of April.  Until then, I’m supposed to see a nutritionist (recommended by the MFM doc).  I’ll also be starting back up at Curves next week.  I’m hoping by April I can drop at least 10-20 lbs.  That’s my goal.  I may be doing some sharing on that here later, but for now that’s all I have to report.  Hope you are all doing well!


7w and questions…

Hello again!  Thank you so much to everyone for all of your love and support!  We’re still in the very early, very nervous stages of this pregnancy, but I’m trying to take it a day at a time.  My ticker on the side seems to be off a bit, but I’m about 7 weeks along today!  For the next week I’m going to have to keep myself busy and distracted.  This is about the time I lost our first baby, Declan.  Somewhere between 7 and 8 weeks.  I don’t go back to my doctor until about 11 weeks, so all I can do is hope that I get to that next appointment.  To borrow a phrase from K over at Waiting for Sunflower, “So far, so good.”

So of course, going into my first appointment I wrote down all of my questions in a little notebook that I always carry with me.  I always have it on me – except apparently when I go in for my first appointment with my doctor!  Bugger.  So, I tried to ask her all I could remember, but I missed most of the important ones!  I’ve spent the last 3 years focusing on GETTING pregnant that I really don’t know much at all about BEING pregnant, and staying that way!  I need some help.  I’m hoping there are some of you TTC ladies that have looked ahead to the pregnancy stage and no what to do, or that there are some of you that have made it out of IF land and can offer me your advice/experience.  I also know I have some good friends who read this who have been pregnant and may be able to help, too.  So, I give you the nervous IF pregnant ladies questions so far:

1) Exercise!  I know that this is good, and before the Xmas season and the BFP I was going in to a gym 3 times per week.  I kinda took December off since we were traveling so much.  Now I find myself in January with a little friend on board, and I’m scared to go back.  I know pregnant women can exercise, but I wonder how much?  Should I cut back the intensity?  Should I wait a few more weeks?  What do you all think?

2) BD-ing.  Yes, I’m nervous about this and my poor DH suffers for it.  When we went in to the ER when we lost Declan the OBGYN that examined me asked a bunch of questions and one of the first was “when was the last time you had sex?”  This of course has scared me into thinking maybe we did something wrong going ahead after the RE told us it was okay.  Now I find myself in this place again, and again nervous we could do something wrong.  I’m sorry, this is way TMI for my friends and family that read this, but I’m pretty nervous and I want to make sure everything is okay before we go ahead.

3) Pre-natals, my nemesis.  I’ve been taking the damn pills for 3 years now.  I’ve been taking some over the counter stuff, but now my doc has prescribed me some.  This was after I asked because I know a lot of my friends who have had babies took prescription pre-natals.  My doc said it doesn’t matter if it’s prescription or over the counter, as long as you are taking them.  She did however give me a bunch of samples and told me to “choose the one I like most.”  How am I supposed to choose?  By taste?  You just swallow the things!  So, I turned to my trusty friend, WebMD.  Here is what they have to say:

  • 400 mcg of folic acid
  • 400 IU of vitamin D
  • 200 to 300 mg of calcium
  • 70 mg of vitamin C
  • 3 mg of thiamine
  • 2 mg of riboflavin
  • 20 mg of niacine
  • 6 mcg of vitamin B12
  • 10 mg of vitamin E
  • 15 mg of zinc
  • 17 mg of iron

This is the list I followed when I chose my over the counter stuff (which by the way is the generic Target brand, exactly the same as the Stuart Pre-Natals if your familiar with that brand.)  I’ve been looking at the ingredients listed on the prescription ones my doc gave me, but none of them have all of these things or the right amounts suggested.  Also, my friend SusQ said her doctor suggested taking a vitamin with DHA in it, which 2 of them do, but they are missing so much of the rest of the list, I think I’d rather stick with my Target brand!  Some of them don’t even have Calcium or Vitamin C in them!  Or, way lower doses than listed above.  None of them have thiamine, riboflavin or niacine.  So, how important is the list above?  Do I need to make sure to get EVERYTHING on that list, or just most of them?  I’m perfectly fine just continuing to take the Target brand, but I’d appreciate some input if y’all have any!

4)  Diet – what am I supposed to eat or not eat?  I know that: hot dogs, lunch meat, caffeine,  alcohol and soft cheeses are out.  Anything else vitally important?  Anything that is really good to eat?  I was hoping for some sort of list from my doc, but I forgot to ask.  Again, help would be appreciated.  Or even a good website you know of that could help??

Okay, I think that’s all for now.  Back to my paranoia!

update and award…

So, after all the worry and wondering about how the DH and I could quietly do the BD while on an air mattress in the room next to our 7 yr old and 3 mo old nephew and niece (not to meniton my BIL and SIL, with the MIL in yet another room, and my 16 yr old niece across the house…) there was no need.  Yup, here I am at CD22 and still no signs of the big O.  I know, I know…this is my 1st cycle on Metformin and it can take up to 6+ months for it to start showing any signs of working, but a girl can still hope, right?  I had hoped that since it seemed that the Met helped to start my cycle in a somewhat timely manner that maybe it would help me Ovulate the first time as well.  I guess there’s still time, but I’m not holding my breath.

I’ve been doing the OPK’s since CD11.  Since I have no idea when I might ovulate, I just have to keep going with them I guess.  I’ve have a few days where there has been a very light + test line, but from what the test says, it’s supposed to be as dark as or darker than the control line.  We’re not there yet folks!  Hopefully I’ll start to get the hang of this and won’t have to waste so many of them in the future.  My current plans are to finish out this cycle, do one more on just the Met, and if that hasn’t worked yet I’ll do cycle #3 with Metformin and the Clomid that my doc gave me.

In other news, I got nominated for another award!  Thanks to Kate at Busted Plumbing (who, by the way, has an AMAZING new look to her blog).  I’ve been “lurking” Kate’s blog for a while, but through Twitter I’ve been following her more closely now and I’m happy to call her a blogg-y friend!

The rules for this award:

  • Put the Lemonade logo on your blog or within your post.
  • Nominate at least 10 blogs with great attitude or gratitude.
  • Link the nominees within your post.
  • Let the nominees know they have received this award by commenting on their blog.
  • Share the love and link to the person from whom you received this award.

1) To my bestest friend, SusQ!!  Through all of my struggles with IF, and through everything else in life you’ve been there for me!  I’m so happy for you and your exciting news and that you’re starting to share it with the world.  I love you!

2) To Kate over at Waiting for Sunflower.  I’m so lucky to have “met” you through blogging!  I’m so glad that you are finding happiness again, and that your SONflower is a big part of that!  You and Jack are always in my thoughts!

3) To Kate over at Infertile Myrtle.  You’ve been another good blogg-y friend this year!  I’m so happy for you and your DH.  Only a few more weeks to go for you!

4) To Becca at Liberal Granola Girls Blog.  I’ve also been “lurking” at your blog this year, and now on Twitter as well!  I love your hope and optimism throughout all of the pain and stress of IF.  You give me inspiration!

5) To the Fertility Chick.  Your posts always bring a smile to my face.  It’s hard to find humor and hope in all of this crap, but you always manage to find it.

6) To Lea at All My Pretty Ones.  I’m so happy for you and your new foster daughter!  I know you’re going to be great with her, and fingers crossed that this could turn into something more!

7) To Amaprincess at The Road to Happily Ever After.  A new Twitter friend!  You always seem to have a good attitude, even in the midst of bad news.  I’ve been enjoying your IF Christmas Carols as well!

8 ) To the Fertility Guy at In the Name of the Father.  It’s nice to have the male perspective, and I know my DH enjoys reading your blog as well.  You and your lovely wife bring a bit of humor and levity to all the struggles we face.

9) To Tara at Broken Baby Making Machine.  Congrats to you on your wonderful news!  I’m so happy to any IFer who gets out of the cycle of BFN’s!  Wish you and your family all the best!

10) To Michelle at 2 of a Kind, Working on a Full House.  I’m glad that I found your blog this year.  You’ve been a great support to me and I always look forward to your next post!

Thanks to everyone else who has been a part of my online support system this year.  I don’t think I could have made it through without all of you!  It helps to have people out there who understand you, who can share the pain and struggle, and who can lift you up.  I feel blessed in this online community.


Seems I’ve been nominated for some awards!  Wow – yay!  So I’m going to take some time today to post them and nominate some more people, as I won’t really have much to report until Thursday afternoon…so here we go!

This award is from Still Waiting For My Sunshine – Thank you!!!  I’ve just recently found her blog, but I’m glad I did.  It helps to be able to read about people going through the same crap that I am, and for the same reasons.  Us PCOS girls have got to stick together!  Thank you so much and I love ya!


The rules for this award are simple.  I LOVE YOU=8 letters which gives you 8 rules  :
1-Thank the person who nominated you for this award and write a little bit about why you love them.
2-Copy the logo and place it on your blog.
3-Link to the person who nominated you for this award.
4-Nominate no more than 17 people (why 17?) who you love or you think could use some love.
5-Write one word (you can only use a word once) about what you love about their blog.
6-You cannot nominate someone who has already been nominated-the love has to spread to all.
7-Post links to the 17 blogs you nominate.
8-Leave a comment on each of the blogs letting them know they’ve been nominated.

So my awards go to:

1. SusQ -Best-Friend

2. Maybe Baby? -Honesty

3. Infertile Myrtle -Hope

4. The Big “IF” – Understanding

5. 2 of a Kind – supportive

6. Mommyland – Inspiring

7. IF Optimist – Cute

8. Fertility Chick – Fun

9. Birds and Squirrels – Informative

This award is from Infertile Myrtle – thanks so much!


Here are the rules:
1. You can only use one word!
2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers.
3. Alert them that you have given them this award!
4. Have Fun!

The Survey
1. Where is your cell phone? desk
2. Your hair? red
3. Your mother? interesting
4. Your father? strong
5. Your favorite food? chicken
6. Your dream last night? none
7. Your favorite drink? milk
8. Your dream/goal? baby
9. What room are you in? office
10. Your hobby? sewing
11. Your fear? alone
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? happy
13. Where were you last night? Abbey’s
14. Something that you aren’t? hopeless
15. Muffins? blueberry
16. Wish list item? baby
17. Where did you grow up? Minnesota
18. Last thing you did? drive
19. What are you wearing? brown
20. Your TV? nice
21. Your pets? dogs
22. Friends? awesome
23. Your life? good
24. Your mood? anxious
25. Missing someone? yes
26. Vehicle? corolla
27. Something you’re not wearing? gloves
28. Your favorite store? Target
29. Your favorite color? green
30. When was the last time you laughed? morning
31. Last time you cried? yesterday
32. Your best friend? awesome
33. One place that I go to over and over? home
34. One person who e-mails me regularly? Justin
35. Favorite place to eat? Sabai Dee

nominating these bloggers…

1. All My Pretty Ones

2. CeCe

3. Bottoms Off…

4. BlondeDawn

5. Still Waiting…

6. Broken Baby Making Machine