So, when my doctor told me I had PCOS, I really had no clue what that meant. In all reality, I still don’t really know what that means. And also, the diagnosis I feel was kind of a default one – they couldn’t find any other reason why I wasen’t getting pregnant, so I think they just chose that one. I’m not saying I don’t have PCOS – from what I’ve read about it, it makes sense. What I am saying is, I kinda feel like the doctor labeled me with this without any proof or testing for it.
That’s not the point though – I wanted to share what I’ve found out about PCOS, mostly from WebMD – the default source of medical info for those who don’t know anything! If you’d like to read the whole article where I got my information, it can be found here.
PCOS stands for Polycystic ovary syndrome. From what I can figure, PCOS basically means that my hormones don’t work the way they are supposed to. I don’t produce the right amounts of hormones essential not just for making babies, but for having regular cycles and ovulating. This is why I was given certain hormone shots during my IUI cycle, given a shot to make me ovulate, and then given progesterone suppliments to guard against miscarriage.
Symptoms of PCOS are (according to webmd):
- Weight gain and trouble losing weight.
- Extra hair on the face and body. Often women get thicker and darker facial hair and more hair on the chest, belly, and back.
- Thinning hair on the scalp.
- Irregular periods. Often women with PCOS have fewer than nine periods a year. Some women have no periods. Others have very heavy bleeding.
- Fertility problems. Many women with PCOS have trouble getting pregnant (infertility).
I’ve always had acne and weight problems. My periods have also always been irregular. I didn’t start my period until about was about 16 or 17 years old. Since then, they come and go as they please. I used to have very short periods – sometimes as little as 2 or 3 days, but never more than 5. Over the past 4 or 5 years, they have pretty much settled into a rhythm of occuring every 3 months and lasting about 6 days. However, there have been times where I would bleed for over a month. I didn’t go to a gynocologist until about 3 years ago, and then decided to try to have a baby 1 year after that. I was never on birth control.
Looking back on the history of my cycles, I should have known something was wrong and done something about it long ago. I always had a fear in my heart, the “what if I can’t have kids?” But I never took that thought seriously, until it actually happened.
So here I am now. Waiting. Waiting for that period to come, that I’ve always dreaded because of the cramping and the inconvienience. I was always so happy that my periods were short and few. I now no that’s not a good thing. And even when this one does start, I’ll have to wait for the next one before we can try again. Frustration is a word I understand well.