sometimes the impossible happens…

So, some of you have been wondering what’s going on with my cycle.  I posted on 14dpo and that was kind of it on that.  Well, I wanted to confirm with the doctor first……………………..

I’m pregnant.

Yup – you read that right folks!  My first cycle of no RE, no IUI, only Metformin and I’m 6w3d!!!!  I can’t believe it!  I really, really did not think it would happen on this cycle, I mean the timing seemed so off!  We did the BD 2 days before ovulation, plus it was my first on the Met.  I figured it was a practice run.  Guess not!

You can imagine my surprise when I POAS and there was a faint 2nd line.  I showed my husband and I said, “I don’t know what this means.”  I was using one of those internet cheapy ones, so before work I stopped at the store and got the digital one, you know that says “pregnant” or “not pregnant”.  I was supposed to wait 3 min for results, but it popped up in like 30 seconds!  Again, shock – awe – wonder – excitement – fear.  Called the DH, told him the news, then tried to call my doctor…I couldn’t get through!  I left 2 messages, kept trying.  Then I decided to call my RE and see if they could get me in for a blood test.  I tried calling ALL DAY and the damn machine kept cutting me off!  Now, this was on Dec 23rd, so I thought maybe everyone was closed?  Which REALLY freaked me out, because then I figured I’d have to wait until I got back from vacation on December 29th!  Yuck, did NOT want to wait that long!  Tried calling my best friend – not home.  Remembered she was on vacation.  Called her cell, didn’t answer.  Went on Facebook and email leaving her messages to CALL ME.  She finally did.  I was so scared, I wanted this to be true but I couldn’t believe it.  Talked with her for a bit.

FINALLY my doctor called me back.  At first they wanted to schedule me on Jan 22nd.  I freaked out.  I told them I’d already lost one baby this year and was really hoping I could get in before that.  The earliest they had was Jan 7th, so I took it.

I’ve been twiddling my thumbs ever since then.  I took one more POAS (cheap internet ones) and the line got darker.  That made me feel better.

I’ve had no idea all this time how far along I was.  I ovulated late, so using the pregnancy fuzzy math wasn’t going to work.  I could have been anywhere from 4-6 wks!  When I went in today, I thought maybe 7wks.  I was pretty close – 6w3d.  My due date is August 30th, which is 6 days after my 30th birthday!  What a great birthday gift

I’m still in a little bit of shock, and I can’t believe we’re here again.  I don’t go back in to the doctor for 4 more weeks, that’ll put me around 10 weeks.  But that’s an awful long time for me.  I hope I don’t go nuts before then!

I’m so nervous and so happy at the same time.  Just a few months ago I was convinced I would never be pregnant again, and now here I am – 6w3d.  It’s a miracle.

So there it is folks.  Now, we’re ABSOLUTELY NOT TELLING ANYONE about this until at least after my 10wk appointment.  I need to have that 2nd confirmation, maybe even more.  However, you all are the exception to this rule.  You’re my support system, so I had to tell you!  We’ve also called our parents, as they do sometimes read the blog and that would have been an awful way for them to find out.  So that’s it folks, mums the word!!

I do have some IRL (in real life) friends who also read this blog (you know who you are!).  I’m asking you – please DO NOT SAY ANYTHING TO ANYONE!!!  We’re not at a place yet to be able to tell people, so we’re asking you to not tell anyone until we are ready.  If you do know me, and you do read this, please leave me a message so I know you know.  We would very much appreciate that

And to everyone – thoughts, prayers, guidance, support, suggestions, advice, etc…are asked for, welcomed and needed!  I’m so grateful to have found this great community on the internet, through blogs and my TTC Twitter girls!  I love you all and value your support.

Sometimes the impossible happens…